Is that it even a thing? Let's give it a name I guess, preacademia depression. It's kind of like postpartum depression, except pre, and about college. So, nothing like postpartum..
Well, there, now that I gave it a fancy name I can officially talk about it.
Honestly, I don't know what my deal is, I don't understand why I've been feeling so down lately. I mean I pretty much have my life together, or at least I like to think I do. I have a loving family, I have great friends, I'm going to a great college, in my mind I pretty much have it all figured out. So then why do I feel like this? I don't know if I can go as far as calling it depression because I don't really consider myself depressed. Thus, my dilemma. If it's not depression, then what is it? There's not much I can be depressed about. I mean, I just got a ten foot phone charger, I have it all.
Here are my symptoms: I've been getting emotional over the tiniest things and then get mad at myself for having emotions - for feeling, I get impulsive urges to leave my town, my home, my family, yet I get so sad when I think of leaving my family and not seeing them for months, I don't feel like doing anything all day and then kick myself for not doing anything productive all day. I feel like I can't win, no matter what I do.
Maybe it's all a transitional thing. Transitions can be tough. I just really hope that this blue phase passes quickly (if only I was Picasso and could take advantage of the situation..) because I hate feeling this way. Doesn't feel any good.
Maybe it's a common thing though..
Preacademia Depression?
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